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2008-03-22T03:52:00.000-07:00

Me and My (friend #3 unexpectedly crashed out in bed before the movie -_-) went to see Shutter tonight after i got home from work. GOD i was scared rofl! I mean it looks pretty low key at first.

The asian horror flicks always seem so slow from a distance. Asian horror is so psychological more than it is physical(like in the US with all it's gory-I'm-a-kick-ass-bitch-die!! *insert eyeroll here* movies). Anyway our reaction was to scream here and there at the shit going on in that movie. It was TOTALLY freaky XDDD *ish scared*

Basically it was about this newlywed couple who goes to have a business trip+honeymoon in Japan. While settling in, they hit this girl who materializes in the middle of the road at night out of nowhere. Now as they take pictures, they notice this white smoke spirit in the pictures and try to figure out why this ghost is suddenly following them. Maybe she's pissed at them for hitting her and not finding her body? The plot leaves itself to be unraveled by you if you see it (sorry no spoilers here lol).

Which is probably why I'm sitting here right now at 12:56am because I wanna get it outta my head by writing something else. Yes im feeling much better thanks *yeah im a total weenie but those horrors are hella fun~ :P*. I think I'll probably wanna see a romantic comedy next or even an action flick! God I'll even see a porno. Anything different other than horror haha!

All in all it was a great movie. Lots of moments where the other girls would be screaming and the guys would start laughing at them (it was packed with teenagers and a few adults that night). My other friend bearkins was all 'psh! it sucks!' so I'm like 'okay no biggie then'. What a surprise lol. If we ever saw the movies I'd peeping out between my fingers *like tonight* while he just yawns at the screen. Ohhh boy~

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2008-02-29T22:01:00.000-08:00

I was looking through fanfiction.net net again just earlier because i'm so bored as of late and really feel like getting back into writing again. I'm totally just dreaming up some of my favorite scenes i would love to put into the Rose+Emmett fic. ******* this....and doing ********...and so forth.

So while i was checking it out I noticed that fanfiction.net is trying out this new thing of beta-reading thing. It's like you can advertise yourself as a beta reader on your profile if you have enough experience on the site. it was kind of like an advertisement in the job listings. it even felt like i was filling out a job resume

or something while i was doing my beta profile. so i put it up as available and i didnt see nething! XD does anyone know how this works?? I guess it would be kind of nice to have something to do on the side. I had a lot of fun helping out this one writer-friend Berry and giving some advice for a story she was writing and i think i wouldn't mind doing it again. it feels kind of good to give some sound advice to someone about something you enjoy and get back a happy person~

i wonder how far i can go with this. i cant wait to see how this thing goes. if anyone knows anything good about it lemme knoooww ;)

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2007-05-21T17:06:00.000-07:00

Well it looks like that's it for Moonlight Melody! It was really a lot of fun writing this story!!!! I loved it. I loved twisting up this story around and adding my own little quirks. I know that i confused a lot of you. it made the ride so much more fun.

Now that you know how the story ended you can see the connections that I made to the real story, right? I had a couple of people who guessed how the story might possibly end. I don’t think anyone guess right but it’s good fun to see how close you might have gotten. I even threw in the old doctor that should have changed Alice in the real story. Only he didn’t really like Alice as much as the book said he did lol. So these are all my little twists. For more of these twists check out the link to an earlier post in the blog that i added around April and updated today: HERE!

I’m very happy with how the story finished. It was so great to finally write those last few lines where Edward told Bella no…again. Lol I don’t really have much to say except that I’m glad to see it finished. I’m so grateful to all the readers who reviewed and gave me their honest input on the chapters and the story as a whole. My favorite compliments were probably the ones that said the story was original LOL. Thanks so much XD I hope that we’ll get to see a lot of stories from Twilight that aren’t so to-the-fact with the book. It makes things a lot more fun as long as you get to see your favorite couple together. Heartheartheart more JasperxAlice!!!!! Thank you very much for reading Moonlight Melody and especially for reviewing. I hope you'll continue to enjoy any other stories that i might write in the Twilight section.

P.S: As for any OTHER Twilight stories I might write I know some people have asked me and for a few I don't know how to get in touch with them so I have to write the answer to their question here XD The EmmettxRosalie thing...its still in my head and God its a wonderful idea. I would have a lot of fun writing that one hehehe. I've already tried putting together everything and the only problem is I'm having a lot of trouble lol. That and the fact that since Moonlight Melody is done I don't feel a lot like writing another vampire fic at the moment >_< . Ahhh no guarantees for the EmmettxRosalie story yet. Probably when I get a head start I'll put something up. Just that the idea is definitely out there! I've learned the hard way to not give promises lol.

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2007-04-16T10:28:00.000-07:00

I've been asked by quite a few people, okay so what happened to Edward after this if Alice never saw him so happy again? What changed Edward so drastically that made him like we first see him in Twilight?

Honestly, I don't really know all the details and I'm not into writing a whole new fic about it >_< They had truly developed a bond as brother and sister. It shows in every way even AFTER Edward becomes so withdrawn the way he is in the book. You see it in the way that Alice and Edward work together to take care of Jasper. It shows the way that Alice comes back for Bella, and even in the way that they argue together in the car after their first encounter with James. There's just such an open and close connection between them.So after he left he really missed her, and the frustration that they had to leave her just boiled up inside him. Along with other ideas.

See, when Alice first saw Edward he was pretty much a fresh vampire as far as experiences with others go. It had already been two years since he'd been changed and he hadn't gone out too much before this. Coming into contact with Jasper, a vampire who was so tortured with himself and his life...someone who was looking for more, was a new experience for him and opened his mind so many other possibilities and questions that he had never thought of asking himself before. What was he meant to be? Why couldn't he drink human blood? What was out there that he didn't know about? Why was he here? Was there still a God for someone like him? Could he be saved? If his existance were ended, would he be able to go to Heaven like humans could? (lol yea the religion question really bugged him the most >_<) Being with Alice distracted and delayed him from seeking these answers out because he cherished and loved his new connection with her. When forced to leave her the questions burned stronger in the back of his mind until finally, he couldn't take it anymore. He turned to Carlisle for answers but what Carlisle told him didn't satisfy him and the two got into an argument. Edward had begun to feel that Carlisle was protecting him, and after seeing how tortured Jasper was he knew that things couldn't possibly be the way that Carlisle had said they were. In the end, Edward left Carlisle to explore the world for himself by himself.

For some time Edward looked for others of his kind. He saw vampires waste away before him, ashamed of who they were. Some some who weren't so ashamed of who they were and relished in the screams and agony of their victims, like Elliot did. He watched all of this from afar until one day he couldn't help himself any more and decided to take action.

Edward tried to save the victim of a masochistic vampire and was immediately shunned by the victim. It was just as Bella had said. He had been called a monster and everything else you can think of. It made him confused, scared, doubtful, and even angry. Was he really a monster? Could monsters be happy? Do monsters get to go to Heaven? Does God care for or love monsters like He does humans? The answer that he got from a homeless bitter old man who was dying in an alley one day gave him the answers he had expected.

There was no salvation for any monster. No God for anyone but humans. Monsters are only
meant to exist. And if God can't love a monster, then no one can...A monster can only love another monster and nothing else.

There's probably nothing worse in the world than to find out you're monster forever, even after death. That there was only existing and anything beyond that would be to join the ranks of the vampires who liked to slaughter the innocent. There was nothing more...nothing less.

In the end he decided that the best chance he could have at a decent existence was one with Carlisle. With this in mind, resigned to his fate, he started to make his way back to Jackson. (note: by this time Jasper and Alice had already left to be alone with themselves)

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2007-04-12T18:53:00.000-07:00

Anyway throughout this whole chapter things are just getting tied up. Edward and Carlisle are heading off in different directions. Carlisle has already started on a trip away from Biloxi as he moves towards Columbus over in Ohio. He’s going on a trip and bringing Edward with him. And for a while Edward is going to go on his own to find himself, he’ll tell Carlisle. So we won’t be seeing him in the last chapter. This is his goodbye chapter right here. Since we all love Edward so very much lol.

Edward has started thinking and Alice feels a sort of sadness towards him because this is the last time that she’ll see the innocent playful Edward for a long time before Bella changes him again. The next time that she sees him he has already become the Edward we all know in Twilight. He went away from Carlisle after Carlisle found Esme and something happened to kill something inside him. I know right now that there’s a whole story behind how became this way but I can’t figure it out so we might not know. All I can say about it is that I think Edward may have gotten into an argument with Carlisle after they ended up leaving Alice back in Biloxi. But he ended up leaving Carlisle either way. Maybe i'll put another post on this after.

So it goes along, we see what’s happened to Adrian and you can sort of see how sad it is that he’s been manipulated this whole time. A lot of people didn’t like Adrian but in the end it turns out he was just a victim in the story. Since that much is obvious, I won’t tell you everything else about what will happen with Adrian. The last will tell you what happened to many of the other chapters, so you’ll find out shortly. About Maria (duh with Elliot) and everyone else.

So the name of the chapter is pieces. Mainly refers to how Alice keeps seeing pieces of the future happening before her and the emotions that she can feel in those visions are so strong and full of hate and anger that it hurts her. Other pieces include her usual life falling apart because of such drastic change and Adrian’s life. His past and his present. Alice’s emotional condition and Adrian’s too (see: fall to pieces?) There are so many different meanings to it all. So many different meanings. But in the end all you can do is put things back together bit by bit.

Finally I took the meaning of words. Adrian was betrayed by words but throughout this whole story Alice has felt how Jasper feels because his feelings are in the air. You can comment that people don’t say it in words that they love you, but a lot of times those three words can be shown in other ways other than words. Other ways like through the person’s eyes that they love you. Words can be misconstrued and twisted like they were with Adrian. But the eyes are the windows to someone’s soul. Alice and Jasper can see their love for each other through the other’s eyes and feel how powerful it is in the atmosphere. That’s how they know how much they truly mean to each other. That’s my meaning for Jasper and Alice’s reunion in the airport towards the end of New Moon when they came back from seeing the Volturi. True soul mates can read and communicate their love to each other in just one look.

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2007-01-27T19:26:00.000-08:00

H mmm this one doesnt really connect with the storyline but i found this picture of a girl on Deviantart and figured id show it on here. it's pretty gory and sorta twisted so if you dont have the stomach for that kinna thing maybe you shouldnt look at it lol. either way i might as well put it on here. it's a girl who is all bloody with red hair. kinna reminded me of Maria a bit but i guess more so of that girl from BloodRayne. very vampiric. here

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2007-01-25T18:41:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I've posted the last chapter but not as long as it SEEMS lol. you guys are so impatient for my to update that i totally love it (how twisted it that? >.<)! so i've been getting that a lot of people didn't expect that Mary-Lynn=Maria. i didn't really look at the description of Maria on the Lexicon so chances are if she's described on there i might have thrown you all off lol. A red haired seductress is just how i see her. I'm just surprised that no one would have expected her to pop into the story. she's a huge part of Jasper's history right? but that's good. ^_^ also a little note: im surprised that you didnt catch some of the other hints from Twilight that i've dropped into the story. or maybe no one has pointed them out in the reviews. did you guys see anything?

but anyway i was staying up all night and i figured that NOW i can HAPPILY announce that the outline to the REST of the rest of the story is now COMPLETE! Wh00h000!!!! :D im so happy about knowing how im going to get to the end that im on cloud9! it's been bugging me for the longest time that i dont know what's going to happen. i just gotta write it all out. I dont know how much more tragic Alice's story is than Bella, but *shrug* i hope that you like how it all ends out. so just hold on! im putting the final touches on the next chapter and it should be out within the next week or so. maybe even this week, depending.

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2007-01-01T20:36:00.000-08:00

It really has been some time since I've written. I mean for a while the ending plot sorta threw me. I know how I want this story to end but I don't know how to get there. Damn I shoulda stuck to my draft lol! So basically I was milling around trying to write and coming up blank. Sorta put it off for a while and then when work started picking up for the holidays I started to put it off, forgetting to come back to it. Thank you guys so much for reminding me that I had some unfinished business to attend to ^.^

Then I came to the realization that the reason why I'm having a hard time coming up with an ending plot is because I was trying to draw out something that wasn't there. The story is almost complete and pretty soon we'll find out how Alice and Jasper's story ends. Basically people, the story is almost finished.

Yeah, the fic is almost done. Can you believe that? XD I think there are about 1-2 chapters left after the one I posted just now. It's sad to see it end but this one has been my most successful one so far and all good things must come to an end.

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2006-12-22T20:45:00.000-08:00

Seeing as most of my characters and storyline seem to have developed throughout their story I figured I would finally show you all the songs that inspired me to write as I went along. The way it's organized is kinna like an anime soundtrack >.< style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(102, 0, 0);">PL@y:

"Bring Me to Life/Going Under/Taking Over Me/Hello"-Evanescence: The songs I used for Alice's dreams. Especially in the first chapter.
Linkin Park: Ehh, too many songs to mention but Stephenie was right. This band rocks.
"Wild Horses"- Natasha Bedingfield: The song has a sad sorta sweet melody that reminds me of how I think about Jasper sometimes. Always hoping and wishing to love freely.
"Silent Movie"-Natasha Bedingfield: The kind of relationship that Alice had with Jasper at first. It's from her POV.
"Piece of Me"-Natasha Bedingfield (Natasha's: Alice/Jasper sort of song. But i feel like it's more from Alice's side.
"In Your World/Stockhold Syndrome"-Muse: These are the ones that I listened to while I was writing the chapter called Dark and Light. It's usually the fast-beat ones that really motivate us to write faster and more freely, I think. Plus the hard parts of the songs make you write harder too.
"Lacrymosa"-Evanescence: This is the song that I listened to over and over again when I was imagining the spell that Adrian kinna wove over Alice when she almost kissed him and then was caught by Alice. It has a kinna eerie helpessness to it that makes me think of the person that Adrian has become. He's a mysterious character that we don't know a lot about and are falling under the spell of.
"Weight of the World"-Evanescence: I guess I can say with certainty that this is Maria's song. No doubt about it. I've imagined her to be a sort of very dark and sexy character that makes Alice look very much like a little girl. Maria is a woman. And her seductiveness makes her seem both ancient (before Jasper, remember?) and powerful. When I was listening to this song, I was imagining her sauntering forward as she talked to Alice, all curves, hips swaying seductively, smug smile, her ruby eyes flashing. The question is, 'Is she the main villain of our story?'
"Lithium"-Evanescence: There's not really a character for this song. The main thing is is that sometimes when we feel strongly about something (or someone) it's kinna like lithium. We just can't seem to let go.

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2006-11-16T23:46:00.000-08:00

Seeing as there's a new character in the story and I havent updated this thing in a while I figure I'd write a little something tonight. Here are some of the things that I probably won't write about in Moonlight Melody. Stuff that isnt really necessary to the plot but hey, who'd complain about knowing a little more about the childhood that Alice seems to breeze through as she tells about when she and Aiden were younger?

There aren't any spoilers in this post though I guess as time goes along and more of this character is revealed I'll write more about him ^_^

Adrian Flynn, as Alice said, is the childhood friend of Mary Alice Brandon. As the son of Mary Alice's best friend, Adrian always came over to the Brandon house alot. And when Alice was born he naturally came with his mother to see the new baby (The houses where Alice and Adrian lived were pretty spread out and secluded, so he didn't have much to do and Adrian wasn't going to school). The moment that he and baby Alice met eyes, the two developed a deep bond. They became inseparable from that day forward.

Sure, he was years older than she was, but it didn't bother him that he was spending most of his time caring for her. There was just some sort of bond between them that he couldn't understand but he naturally accepted because it just seemed right.

Many of Adrian's(who was 9 at the time) days were spent playing with and taking care of baby Alice. When she grew older, he acted as a big brother for her, walking around with her, taking her places, playing in the stream and making mud pies. They had countless mud fights and the two of them used to always get into so much trouble for getting muddy.

Neither kid cared though. They both loved it too much to stop and Alice especially refused to listen to her mother's scoldings. The two used to get in so much trouble for it and one night Alice even convinced Adrian to run away with her. Of course they didn't get too far on their ration of bread, cheese, and sweets. Eventually they had to turn back and BOY did they get it when they got home.

As they got older and Alice started to get ideas about love they started playing house and that was when Adrian proposed they get married. He'd heard that if they really loved eachother and wanted to be together forever they could get married and never be apart even when they died. Alice, who was then 8 (he was 16), was more than happy to comply. She wasn't even CLOSE to being ready to let go of him.

So one morning they snuck outside into the daisy field and tried to get married. Adrian told Alice that they need to have ring, to whisper their promise and then seal it with a kiss. So Alice wove a wreath of daisies for him, whispered in his ear what she thought was her promise to him (she knew what she wanted but didn't know how to say it): "I'm yours..."

When she blushed and readied herself to kiss him, he leaned over and gently kissed her on the cheek.

They had a lot of good times together. Everyone knew that if one of them was around so was the other. It was Adrian who gave Alice her wacky edge and taught her to dance one night in the field that they were supposedly married in. Adrian pretty much made Alice what she is in Moonlight Melody.

TwILiGht PicTurEs

2006-10-22T19:43:00.000-07:00

O kay I figured that since I had put some pictures that I drew for Hidden Power I would put up some pictures that Edward drew for me in honor of Moonlight Melody. Heck, in honor of Twilight. But what the hell...why not show you what we think Alice, Jasper and Edward look like? Possible more on the way.

He's working on more at the moment but the next ones that we put out will be colored instead of in black and white. I'm working on my coloring abilities ^_^

My 0wN lil TwiSts

2006-10-16T21:30:00.000-07:00

H ad a few people lately who pointed out that Moonlight Melody is very different from Twilight. A number of people were surprised at this when I posted chapter 1 and told me that I had gotten the story wrong. Yup it's different. It just one of those stories that shows you just how things might have gone differently had this happened instead of that.

What love story could have bloomed between Jasper and Alice if Jasper had known her while she was in the hospital? What do you think Jasper and Edward were like before you read about them in Twilight? What if Alice had never been crazy? What if she'd known Edward and Carlisle personally before she was changed? What if she actaully remembered everything? These are all questions that Moonlight Melody will answer.

I might have substituted most of Stephenie Meyer's facts about the characters with something close to resembling it in this story. Just to sort of hint what kind of vampires they will become in Twilight. They are pre-Twilight characters in this story so I'm hoping to portray how they were before Twilight. How they became the people that Stephenie Meyers writes about today.

Examples...

Alice is a quirky and happy young woman who likes to twirl and dance around. Twilight is always comparing her vampiric grace to something that 'would make a ballerina cry'. She's also one of the more perkier Cullens, always nice to Alice.
Alice seems to have a love for designer brand clothes, fashion accessories (she has such a big vanity table in her room), and even has a full length mirror that Edward got her in her hospital room. This is because we all know how much she will love shopping when she gets the money to do so for Bella in Twilight.
I've taken the visions that Alice is supposed to have of Jasper and made them into dreams about him.
Seeing as Alice will be able to tell the future, she has excellent inner tuition about various things throughout Moonlight Melody.
Jasper is portrayed in Moonlight Melody as lonely and hopelessly dark. His control isn't very good and it will never be good as we see later in Twilight and New Moon.
Edward was just turned into a vampire recently and is still learning to cope with that (see Chapter 4 when he accidentally answer's Alice's thoughts and gets frustrated with himself).
Carlisle already harbors a sort of attachment for Esme. In Chapter 4 when he takes a long look at the tree outside Alice's window (Note: He fixed Esme's broken ankle when she fell out of a tree as a child) and reminisces a little about her.
Alice's hair was long in the beginning of the story but you can see when she cuts it and why in Chapter8.
In Chapters 13 and 14, you find out the story behind the Jasper and Alice soul-mate-stare that you saw in the airport when Alice and Bella came back from Italy with Edward.

Anyway for you all here are the main points from the STORY so far that I've taken the liberty of changing in the fic:

Alice remembers her human memories.
Alice first meets Jasper in 1920 instead of finding him in 1948.
Alice and Jasper get married in 1948 instead of finding eachother for the first time.
Mary Alice Brandon is living in a regional hospital with a chronic heart condition instead of being crazy in a mental institution.
Alice knew Carlisle Cullen a long time before she knew Jasper.
The Cullens (what there IS of them at the moment in the story) come into the story much earlier than the 1950s.
She has a relationship with Jasper as a human, just like Bella has with Edward.
Alice met Jasper because he was trying to mainstream in the hospital at night as a volunteer.
Alice is an only child ( I didn't know that she had a sister before and I'm not gonna change it because it says so in New Moon. I'm going to make sure it stays how it is now.)
The old doctor that loved Alice originally changed her and wanted to protect her is actually a crotchety old doctor named Mr. Moony Madison (interesting name huh?) and he didn't really love her as much as he did in the Twilight story. To him, Alice was nothing more than the friend with the bad influence on his niece, Ixie.
Carlisle is actually the one to change Alice, and Jasper is right there to watch her go through it all. She was never alone.

And so that's everything. Of course you know that everything else I added in. Jasper singing to Alice, Alice going to school and having Jasper follow her....that's all me. But the ones that I listed above are probably the ones that would impact the story the most.

L@nGuaGe ReViEws!-->

2006-08-12T14:35:00.000-07:00

W ow! Let me just say WOW! This morning I got a review in Spanish!!! *goes nuts with happiness* I guess people are actually looking at my profile. This was the 2nd review I've ever gotten in another language for the story Hidden Power. My first one was in korean. (Still dont kno what 'jemiiss' means and would <3 some help with that if nebody knows X.X) this 2nd one is in Spanish and although i'm a bit surprised i'm so very excited about reading it!! i hope my grammar wont be too crappy when i respond back. not to mention im gonna need all the practice i can get seeing as ill be seeing my family in california soon and not all of em speak english.

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2006-07-27T22:02:00.000-07:00

I just had to rant in this little area. Okay so i haven't officially posted it as COMPLETE but I can hardly believe the story is FINISHED! It's amazing, for me! I can't count the number of fics that I've just put off and given up on. I'm so proud to have finished such a long story and seen it thougth how i've always dreamed of finishing it!

Huzzah! :D

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2006-07-17T17:31:00.000-07:00

S ummary, that I promised to post up on here. This is orginal storyline of Hidden Power, whose titles was actually the 4 Guardians at first (i always sucked at titles >.<). You might find the plot itself is VERY different. There was a whole new plot that came along with the story I'm writing on the net. I felt it was too long and needed to be cut down. There are some things that im making sure to stick with, but I've also added quite a bit as time went on. Like the sprites, and Emma, and Gabriel too.

Hidden Power

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2006-07-17T17:05:00.000-07:00

Now that we're almost at the end of the story, here are some of the pictures that I've drawn a long time ago when I first wrote the story. They are meant to match some of the characters in the story. Only thing you have remember is that since the story is rather old, the pictures might be a little outdated.

3 Sprites/Spirits: Here's a picture of three of the chibis. unfortunately ive been unable to scan my most favorite sprite (Skye). But here's just an idea of what they looked like when I first drew them. Only now Gaia is a girl instead of a boy.

Skye (Guardian in Battle Mode): This is Skye when he's not in chibi mode. In the middle of ch18 this is what the Spirit of Sky looks like when he's ready to fight. He looks a little freaky, but he's meant to be the most powerful of the sprites so there you have it!

Rowan (Guardian of Earth): Behold, the original Guardian of Earth, Rowan Evans. He's the hot, sweet guy who keeps to himself but is polite and not interested in seeing other girls (tho they definitely can't get enough of him lol).

Aja (Guardian of Sky): Aja Killian is the shy Guardian of Sky. Before Hidden Power became a fan fic for CCS this is what he looked like. He was constantly doted on by the Guardian of Water and picked on by the Guardian of Fire and blushed very easily. But despite the fact that he was so quiet and shy, he was always the most powerful of the Guardians.

4 Guardians: The original 4 Guardians from left to right: Aja Killian, Andy Kratz, Rowan Evans, Nita Callaghan.

Well that' all I got at the moment. I could have sworn that I scanned a picture of the Prophet, the TriArch, Ryou and Kotoko, but i dunno where THAT went. Working on more but im currently without a scanner :'( i need to buy myself a fricken scanner or something.

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2006-07-17T10:51:00.000-07:00

Coming up with the deeper parts of chapter 6 is becoming something of a problem for me. it's the moment when alice gets jasper to tell her about It. It is supposed to represent the unknown monster inside of jasper. he's not sure what to call it in general, so he calls it It.

i like that fact that jasper nearly attacks alice. it's pretty cool to see an evil and dark, but sexy side come out of him. all the more better for him to stay away from bella in the future. he's not in control of his urges. Jasper is supposed to be the worst so I just tried to bring that little part out in this chapter. It’s a good way to show the way his vampiric hunger has changed him so much from the cool and confident Major of the Confederate Army to the taciturn and overly tense and depressed vampire he is in this story (and GOD was it fun).

i got pretty far last night and was so proud of myself. music really helps me write a lot of times...loosens thoughts so that things really flow when i write. but silence really helps the brain too.

You all might have noticed that there was a lot of stuff in here about light and dark. The darkness is that they’re all referring to in here is the It, which if it was kinna confusing, represents the monster side of Jasper. Yknow the evil and constantly hungry vampire part that Edward describes with red eyes in the first chapter of Midnight Sun? The It, or in other words the darkness, is something that Jasper fears and has very little control over. Hence the fact that he nearly attacks alice. It’s that fear that makes him unstable in a way, so that he has he unwittingly exposes his more vampiric traits. He’s so focused on keeping his hunger in check. It’s just not as much in check as he would like it to be.

Of course he’s been a vampire for much longer than Edward (who has better control than him), but Jasper is still not used to the company of humans. Luckily he’s only working the night shift so he doesn’t have to be around humans so much. he has been hunting them for a very long time with whatever clan he’s been living with (haha old habits die hard). But at this point he’s come to realize that he’s unhappy and that something in his life is missing. So he ventures out to find it and maybe make some changes in his lifestyle…that’s how he comes to meet alice!

He’d been a little hopeful until he killed Christian Petty out of anger. Then he realized that change was hopeless. Of course you can see in this chapter that alice convinces him to keep trying. Will he be able to keep in control…?

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2006-07-14T18:11:00.000-07:00

I didn't really get too much of a chance to talk about the TriArch in this story so this is where im going to do it. It wasn't really discussed in depth in the story since we were so close to the climax of the plot that there was no time to explain about them as much as i really wanted to. I absolutely love them and i can say without a doubt that i had the most fun writing them!

First off who they are: The TriArch is the group of 3 gothic orphans who were brought together solely by destiny to fight Chaos. They're like the Guards of the Guardians, in a way. They each have certain abilities and are like the secret trained assassins for the 4 Guardians. That's why we didnt know about them until the day of the Battle of the End, because their 1st. Duty is to protect the 4 Guardians at all costs (even at the cost of their life). 2nd Duty as a TriArch is to eliminate any immediate threat.

Then their lifestyle is undoubtedly dark. I mean they're orphans. They came together because they were eventually supposed to. The three have each lost their family in some way so all they have is eachother, really. They've turned into a sort of family because they're in this whole thing together. They're a gothic-outcast family. Skye and Meredith are like the constantly bickering brother and sister. Kinna like the relationship Sakura has with Touya. Except Meredith is a little more mature than Skye and always ends up getting the last laugh in the end, no matter what Skye does lol. Emma is like the elder sister who takes care of all of them. She just tends to watch from the sidelines and write her poetry. She loves to write poetry. And she IS the oldest @ 18. Skye is 17. Meredith is 12. (Meredith is the youngest and yet most cynical and powerful of the three).

Personality-wise, each of them are all gothic. I mean they all act sorta of cool and dark. None of them really gives a crap what other people around them think about them. Meredith is the kind of kid whose cold silence freaks people out(she frequently freaks the crap out of Skye out, but he loves that about her). She never really says much and has NO patience. Skye is the rebel type. He likes to cause trouble, but is pretty solemn around people he doesn't know. Always ready for a good fight. Emma appears to be the flirt with a mean streak . That girl can definitely pack a punch (which isn't too common). This is one family that you NEVER want to ever piss off. They won't take it.

i actually have a picture that i drew of them but ill put it up later when i can get it off my other computer XD

PRINCE of D@rKneSS-->

2006-07-12T18:39:00.000-07:00

T he Prince of Darkness, as told on Myspace is Rosalie's little dog. It's a pretty cute story that I just decided to just briefly mention in Moonlight Melody. Most of the time Bella and the Cullens just call the dog 'Prince/the Prince'.

Rosalie just adores her dog.Prince is like the way that celebrities would adopt tiny dogs and treat them like royalty. There are even some times that Emmett pretends to be jealous of the little dog. Every now and then he'll joke around and threaten to eat Prince. Then Rosalie goes ratting on him to Carlisle. "Carlisle! Emmett wants to eat my dog!" Many times he can be found in Edward's room. Much to Edward's annoyance Prince has taken a certain love for his shoes. he likes to chew on them lol.

There was actually a really interesting episode where Prince suddenly disappeared and Rosalie had no idea where he was. She was REALLY suspicious of Emmett and Jasper. The two guys loved to play pranks on the dog and Emmett would tease her over and over saying that she should stop looking for Prince because he ate him! Meanwhile as Rosalie continues freaking out over her missing pooch, Emmett and Jasper are conspiring with eachother back and forth and others. fans were getting a kick out of the whole thing! they consoled rosalie and reminded Emmett that if he really did eat Prince hell hath no fury like a woman pissed.

In the end, though, it turns out that Emmett and Jasper had actually taken Prince to obedience school the whole time. Edward was in on it but it was Jasper who was the whole brains of the operation. Jasper is always the one who makes the most trouble lol.

BE@uty+Be@sT-->

2006-07-03T18:55:00.000-07:00

Remember when i said that i was thinking about writing another Cullen couple story? Well, last night i was trying to come up with something original as far as plot go (if you're curious i came up with a guy looking for the pieces to his girlfriend's heart) and decided to start working on an Emmett and Rosalie story.

so i did and came out with the prologue already, which i thought came out real cute. it's not exactly how Moonlight Melody started but it's the same sort of point. only Emmett is alone when he tells the story. it's called The Beauty and Beast.

It's got a fairy tale title but im not expecting it to turn out that way. it's going to be a cat/mouse story hopefully for mature audiences only seeing as Emmett and Rose have a more *ahem* physical than soulful relationship. :) Still trying to figure out how/if there is going to be sex in there or what.

im aiming for something more different than usual. it wont be as long as Moonlight Melody, and im not all sure about how the plot going to go. ive just got some backround plot working and this time im NOT posting til it's FINISHED! (hahaha that's what i said about Moonlight Melody and i posted when i was on ch3 -__-'). but im sure it'll be fun writing ^.~

what dya all think?

NeW M00n ch1-->

2006-07-01T02:16:00.000-07:00

J ust through reading the first chapter of New Moon. it was freakin AWESOME! ahhh! at first it felt like i was reading another fanfic because its' pretty common that everyone guesses what edward will give bella for her birthday *damn, we didnt even get to find out in all the panic :(* and stuff like that in general. it was so nice to see edward and bella for real again. to be reading Meyer's work again after so long was totally refreshing.

the best part, though was the part where Jasper goes nuts. lol, lovely huh? XP i read that part over and over again and told myself, 'this is the wild side of him that im portraying in my story. the raw vampire instinct'. then i thought how the HELL can alice stay safe as a human around someone like this?!

edward will probably in so much pain after this first chapter, the poor guy :'(

WRiTTeN+UnReS0LveD-->

2006-06-24T13:57:00.000-07:00

I swear to goodness i have a problem! see the good thing is ladies and gents, is that ive been writing out the dialogue for then next chapter or two for the past few days. it's been so much FUN! *giggles madly*

but im kinna curious how it will all turn out.

EDw@rd CuLLen Aw@reness Day-->

2006-06-20T20:34:00.000-07:00

Today is Edward Cullen's birthday!! June 20 ladies and gents! :D *yells for all fellow Twilight fans to hear* HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDWARD CULLEN!

god he is so hot! XD well the way Stephenie Meyer describes him, he's hot. tall, lanky, but muscular with untidy bronze hair, marble smooth skin, gold eyes, fastest vampire in the world, absolutely romantic....YUM!

Twilight's a book, by the way. My most favorite book in the entire world at the moment, anyway. it's about a girl named Bella Swan who moves to a town named Forks. there she meets a family of vampires, the Cullens: Carlisle, Edward, Esme, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, and Jasper. The main problem in the story, though is that she and Edward Cullen (a mind reader who curiously cant read her mind, btw) have fallen in love, which literally puts her life at risk. mainly because his nature as a blood-thirsty vampire puts her life in danger. sad huh? well even though he eventually learns to master his urges to kill her, another vampire ends up hunting her.

dont worry she lives. the cullens save her and now she's currently working to persuade edward to change her into a vampire. but its not working. the power of love overcomes all in the end, im hoping.

im a total romance lover so naturally this has become my favorite book in the entire world!! ^_^ i musta read it a hundred times already. i really cant wait til the movie and the next book come out! it's going to be great! *runs in happy circles* i check the website and chat with all other Twilight fans. dude, ive even chatted with the author in the chatroom. she's so cool! lol so there you have it. my Twilight obsession on Edward's birthday, June 20. just thought id mention it for the moment since everyone else is talking about it!

MM ch5+6-->

2006-06-19T22:49:00.000-07:00

Wow, i cant believe i made it to chapter 6 already. man, i wish i could just post the ch5 already!! i mean i just finished it after seeing people wanted longer chapters and then realizing that a confrontation between Jasper and Edward would be pretty interesting. it seemed perfect! (i did tell people that it would be fairly dark, but i didnt mean drama-cry wise. i actually meant bloody-and-hopeless dark...doesnt Jasper seem like that kind of person?)

stephenie says that the best thing about writing is if it is something that you can re-read over and over and still enjoy then that's very very good! i really enjoyed writing chapter 6. especially the more darker parts hehe. is that twisted or what?

Gr@tiTude-->

2006-06-19T20:25:00.000-07:00

So far i have to say that im pretty pleased with blogger.com. It's a kick-butt blog site and totally easy to handle, unlike other sites. maybe im jus an idiot? :D lol well im really enjoying myself thus far. it's fun to fool around with this thing and ive seen just a sample of the things that we can do on here. ive already tweaked the links on the side bar and im going to try to put a few pretty avatars on there later now that ive discovered the damn Publish button :P (i wonder if my immodicons will show up on here? i wish we had them!) its all pretty free-reigned, thank GOD and we can make our blog look like anything we want!! CHEE-HA! but i guess for now i really like this black theme. it's very simple, very dark, and very classic. very cool. ill wait for a little before i fiddle around with the layout more. im totally enjoying myself.

EPiPH@nY-->

2006-06-19T13:12:00.000-07:00

Well i was just finishing up the author note at the end of ch6 to Moonlight Melody and figured that maybe the readers would want to look in and see how im doing with the story (that's you if you're reading this right now ^_^).

this will be a good way for me to write to you all and for you to check my progress, if you're really that interested in doing so i guess. :) everyone always asks me how things are going with the story and when will i update. do you want a beta reader and i dont get this and that sorta stuff? ill put some summaries in here and explanations. also check the side bar for stuff too as to what im doing right now.

i already had this stuff in my personal blog but i wasnt so sure you wanted to go through the trouble of separating my personal rambling from the story stuff so here you go (not to say you cant look...if you're curious go ahead and read my blog. im proud of it ^_^ the link's on the right.)

i thought maybe id be giving too much away by putting up something like this, but there's always so much that i want to tell you all and i dont want to put it in the story. (now im jus rambling on, god) i can never write enough, i feel. there's always an abundant amount of things to say when im given something to write about (essays and stuff like that) and my stories are no expception to the rule.

so for all you readers out there...this is for you. <3

MM ch4 An@Lysis-->

2006-04-11T13:49:00.000-07:00

T here wasn't really much to talk about in chapter 3, to be honest. i mean it's mostly about the life that Alice has been forced to leave behind. that must really suck..i can't begin to imagine never having a normal school life. how she's become something of a school legend for her in-and-out of school routine and make fun out of it by bumping into her. what a fricking pain in the ass!

anyway i sort of took you all through this little guilt trip in chapter four. one reviewer commented that she really felt as if she were going through what alice was going through (THAT made me happy). so i tried to describe alice's ongoing guilt trip as best as i could from all perspectives. alice's, her friends, those faceless students around her, and jasper too. yknow how nothing seems to bother you anymore except that main problem. eventually all the stress drives her blood pressure up and her heart gives out on her. Listening to Linkin Park and 3 Days Grace really helped me write this chapter. Songs like Drown and By Myself are depressing.

writing about edward was fun too. lol showing him making the mistakes of a newbie vampire and hinting at his ability to read minds was a total kick! also mentioned how carlisle remembered about esme (notice how he stared at the tree a little too long...he treated esme as a young woman when she fell out of a tree).

MM ch2 An@Lysis-->

2006-03-28T13:48:00.000-08:00

The whole purpose of this chapter was to show you the kind of person Jasper is. He's the guy who tries to stay away from other people for "reasons unknown" to us. Of course we all know it's just like the how edward stayed away from bella (we DO right?? 0.0''), but it's just kinna nice to play it all out in a different way. whereas bella was angry about it, alice saw it as a sort of enigma to discover. she's a girl who loves a challenge.

i absolutely loved that part where jasper sort of helps alice out of that situation with jasper. i mean i kno some of you freaks out there love the damsel in distress thing. hahahaha *bounces around* me too! XD

and finally a note on rosalie in the beginning. im not sure if everyone knows about Rosalie's dog? on myspace some fans have created MySpace accounts and posed as Twilight characters. the characters message people back and forth and comment on what's going on in their lives as characters. like rosalie has a blog of her wedding to emmett, a list of the pros and cons for being a girl vampire, alice reminds other characters about the weather and that they're going to play ball, and finally rosalie has a dog named the Prince of Darkness. lol. yes, she has a dog! that's the dog that Jasper supposedly dropped when he heard alice call him a stubborn ass. more on that in the next post!

MM ch1 Summ@ry+An@Lysis-->

2006-03-13T13:47:00.000-08:00

Just finished writing chapter 1 and im so PROUD of myself. ive done the summary over and over so many times and enjoyed it eachtime. but after looking at the one i wrote in my composition book and comparing it to the actual writing itself that i intend to post after i finish the story, i didnt write it out as i had expected. things, like the background plot have changed. but i gotta say that i definitely like what i see.

writing about alice's story was easy and fun though. i wanted so much to add parts of her vampire self in there to make a sort of connection, so i put her weaving through people gracefully and swaying her hips while talking to carlisle (which seemed a little sensual but vampirically sensually so in a way). stephenie meyer is always comparing alice's grace to something that would make a ballerina cry. why not show that she always loved to dance around as a human? that's also where her ability to predict Christian's moves as he chased her. eventually her good sense of judgement and prediction will make her into a psychic vampire.

the dream was something i wrote while listening to Linkin Park and Wild Horses, by Natasha Bedingfield. Wild Horses was perfect for getting me in the mood to write the sadness and dreamlife mood for the..er..dream. also take good notice that her hair is long and spread out in what she calls is something 'like a vampire'. just a little hint there :)

one of those subtle connections that will continue to flit into the story here and there! the whole fact that jasper was singing doesnt have anything to do with edward's lullaby whatsoever as some people guess. i used it as an excuse for alice to go looking for jasper other than the obvious fact that she's attracted to his animosity to her (everyone's unbearably nice to the poor weak girl). i keep hoping that jasper would give her his mp3 player so she can listen to the music he was listening to to as he worked, the song that she heard in her dreams. til i remembered that they were in the 1920s. no mp3 players no cd players. :'( singing would work just nicely tho i guess...