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I've been asked by quite a few people, okay so what happened to Edward after this if Alice never saw him so happy again? What changed Edward so drastically that made him like we first see him in Twilight?

Honestly, I don't really know all the details and I'm not into writing a whole new fic about it >_< They had truly developed a bond as brother and sister. It shows in every way even AFTER Edward becomes so withdrawn the way he is in the book. You see it in the way that Alice and Edward work together to take care of Jasper. It shows the way that Alice comes back for Bella, and even in the way that they argue together in the car after their first encounter with James. There's just such an open and close connection between them.So after he left he really missed her, and the frustration that they had to leave her just boiled up inside him. Along with other ideas.

See, when Alice first saw Edward he was pretty much a fresh vampire as far as experiences with others go. It had already been two years since he'd been changed and he hadn't gone out too much before this. Coming into contact with Jasper, a vampire who was so tortured with himself and his life...someone who was looking for more, was a new experience for him and opened his mind so many other possibilities and questions that he had never thought of asking himself before. What was he meant to be? Why couldn't he drink human blood? What was out there that he didn't know about? Why was he here? Was there still a God for someone like him? Could he be saved? If his existance were ended, would he be able to go to Heaven like humans could? (lol yea the religion question really bugged him the most >_<) Being with Alice distracted and delayed him from seeking these answers out because he cherished and loved his new connection with her. When forced to leave her the questions burned stronger in the back of his mind until finally, he couldn't take it anymore. He turned to Carlisle for answers but what Carlisle told him didn't satisfy him and the two got into an argument. Edward had begun to feel that Carlisle was protecting him, and after seeing how tortured Jasper was he knew that things couldn't possibly be the way that Carlisle had said they were. In the end, Edward left Carlisle to explore the world for himself by himself.

For some time Edward looked for others of his kind. He saw vampires waste away before him, ashamed of who they were. Some some who weren't so ashamed of who they were and relished in the screams and agony of their victims, like Elliot did. He watched all of this from afar until one day he couldn't help himself any more and decided to take action.

Edward tried to save the victim of a masochistic vampire and was immediately shunned by the victim. It was just as Bella had said. He had been called a monster and everything else you can think of. It made him confused, scared, doubtful, and even angry. Was he really a monster? Could monsters be happy? Do monsters get to go to Heaven? Does God care for or love monsters like He does humans? The answer that he got from a homeless bitter old man who was dying in an alley one day gave him the answers he had expected.

There was no salvation for any monster. No God for anyone but humans. Monsters are only
meant to exist. And if God can't love a monster, then no one can...A monster can only love another monster and nothing else.

There's probably nothing worse in the world than to find out you're monster forever, even after death. That there was only existing and anything beyond that would be to join the ranks of the vampires who liked to slaughter the innocent. There was nothing more...nothing less.

In the end he decided that the best chance he could have at a decent existence was one with Carlisle. With this in mind, resigned to his fate, he started to make his way back to Jackson. (note: by this time Jasper and Alice had already left to be alone with themselves)

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Anyway throughout this whole chapter things are just getting tied up. Edward and Carlisle are heading off in different directions. Carlisle has already started on a trip away from Biloxi as he moves towards Columbus over in Ohio. He’s going on a trip and bringing Edward with him. And for a while Edward is going to go on his own to find himself, he’ll tell Carlisle. So we won’t be seeing him in the last chapter. This is his goodbye chapter right here. Since we all love Edward so very much lol.

Edward has started thinking and Alice feels a sort of sadness towards him because this is the last time that she’ll see the innocent playful Edward for a long time before Bella changes him again. The next time that she sees him he has already become the Edward we all know in Twilight. He went away from Carlisle after Carlisle found Esme and something happened to kill something inside him. I know right now that there’s a whole story behind how became this way but I can’t figure it out so we might not know. All I can say about it is that I think Edward may have gotten into an argument with Carlisle after they ended up leaving Alice back in Biloxi. But he ended up leaving Carlisle either way. Maybe i'll put another post on this after.

So it goes along, we see what’s happened to Adrian and you can sort of see how sad it is that he’s been manipulated this whole time. A lot of people didn’t like Adrian but in the end it turns out he was just a victim in the story. Since that much is obvious, I won’t tell you everything else about what will happen with Adrian. The last will tell you what happened to many of the other chapters, so you’ll find out shortly. About Maria (duh with Elliot) and everyone else.

So the name of the chapter is pieces. Mainly refers to how Alice keeps seeing pieces of the future happening before her and the emotions that she can feel in those visions are so strong and full of hate and anger that it hurts her. Other pieces include her usual life falling apart because of such drastic change and Adrian’s life. His past and his present. Alice’s emotional condition and Adrian’s too (see: fall to pieces?) There are so many different meanings to it all. So many different meanings. But in the end all you can do is put things back together bit by bit.

Finally I took the meaning of words. Adrian was betrayed by words but throughout this whole story Alice has felt how Jasper feels because his feelings are in the air. You can comment that people don’t say it in words that they love you, but a lot of times those three words can be shown in other ways other than words. Other ways like through the person’s eyes that they love you. Words can be misconstrued and twisted like they were with Adrian. But the eyes are the windows to someone’s soul. Alice and Jasper can see their love for each other through the other’s eyes and feel how powerful it is in the atmosphere. That’s how they know how much they truly mean to each other. That’s my meaning for Jasper and Alice’s reunion in the airport towards the end of New Moon when they came back from seeing the Volturi. True soul mates can read and communicate their love to each other in just one look.